i didn’t want them to win. i didn’t want them to be successful. it feels like a slap to the face. i don’t know. i feel so urgh. i told myself time and time again no you have to get over it. this is not the end of you. just argh. why
why couldnt i go somewhere else to be the big fish. i feel so upset. i dont know if i should scream if i should cry or anything. please. just obliviate my mind. i wish none of this happened. i wish i didnt exist.